10-17-2023, 05:28 PM
Hi Project,
I would like you to read a story I wrote. I changed the names and modified the setting to respect privacy, but the facts are absolutely true, like the sensations and the dialogues. You can use it however you want.
TWO-FACED GAY GUYS
At the time I was 23 years old and I was doing my best to get busy with university exams to try to finish in a decent time, I had known Mario for a few months, I had met him at university but he wasn't my course colleague, I had been introduced to him by some mutual friends, but only because he was with them when once I met them, we weren't really friends, rather simple acquaintances, if not even less, in practice I hadn't really paid any attention to him, also because he wasn't at all the kind of guy I'd turn around and look at on the street. I knew practically nothing about him, and frankly he just seemed to me like an ordinary guy with whom I couldn't or wouldn't have anything to do anyway. It happened that we then met again at university and we talked a bit, but just to kill time: he had a girlfriend and he talked about her often, and really a little too often, I listened to him out of courtesy, however, since he really didn't attract me, I had never thought about a fundamental detail: I had never seen them together, even though according to Mario the girl lived in our town, which is certainly not New York.
Once when Mario, I and another friend were together, the topic of gays came up and he made some strange faces, he didn't make homophobic jokes, but those strange faces were in themselves faces, I won't say perplexed, but as if we were talking about Martians . The other friend, who is 100% straight, was distracted and didn't notice, but those strange faces were directed at me, even though according to my friends I was certainly not gay, even though I never talked about girls. Let's say that the fact that I treated my friends like a perfect straight friend certainly didn't classify me as gay. I too must have made a strange face at least for a few seconds in front of Mario's strange faces, but then I stopped and preferred to change the subject.
Apart from this somewhat strange episode, for me Mario was in all respects an ordinary guy. In the meantime I had met another guy who I really liked and his name was Marco and with him a truly spontaneous and pleasant atmosphere had been created. I suspected that Marco was gay and he probably thought so about me, but at university two guys can't isolate too much, and we behaved like two colleagues who had the pleasure of going to breakfast together and nothing more. In private, with Marco, the conversations were practically explicit, and after a while we ended up telling each other that we were both gay. Marco, however, was a little too free and casual in certain things, he frequented chats where I would never have entered and he also had sporadic encounters with guys he met in chats, things that I would never have done! The relationship with Marco remained only at the level of friendship because he had a rather casual sexual life and then because I had clearly stopped him when he had tried to make sexual advances to me, because I was afraid of sexually transmitted diseases. But we remained serious friends and basically used to tell each other everything.
One day Marco asks me about Mario, I think that he is interested in Mario and I tell him that Mario has a girlfriend. He looks at me with a face I will never forget and says: “Who? Mario?" and he tells me that Mario is on gay dating sites for at least 12 hours a day and he puts scary explicit photos there! Which I don't even think are photos of him! Marco tells me that he tried to contact Mario on one of these sites, but that Mario, who responds to everyone, never responded to him, because he knows that he is a guy from the university and doesn't want to be disgraced. I was astonished. Then Marco broadens the subject and tells me about another guy from the university, a colleague of his, but not mine, who I too had seen around and had noticed with some interest because he was quite cute, and tells me that if you see him at the university he is the prototype of the scientist all mathematics and physics but if you see him on dating sites you are truly amazed and the photos are really his, they are not taken from the internet. Marco then tempts me and tells me that if I want he'll show me what he's talking about, he can enter the site with his credentials and I can judge what's there, both Mario's and that other boy's. I'm very tempted but in the end I tell him that I'm satisfied with the fantasy.
After the conversation with Marco I asked myself several times why Mario keeps Marco at a distance, ok, he doesn't know him and doesn't trust him, but at least he knows that he is gay, he knows nothing about me and plays the straight role with me, and okay, I can understand, but what fear can he have of him? Marco goes on dating sites and tells me of it, it's okay, he's fine because he knows I won't tell anyone, but, let's say, he has a bit of fun on those sites (assuming he has really fun) but he has also real gay friends, and I mean just friends, and he's fine with them. Instead, in my opinion, Mario only has the life of dating sites and nothing else at all. Only gay guys who frequent dating sites know that he is gay, but he has no relationship with them, I mean no emotional relationship. I spoke to Marco on other occasions about this topic and he told me that a gay friend of his met Mario in person through the dating site and that he seemed really addicted to sex, as if that was the only way to have a contact really involving with other guys.
I recently had the opportunity to talk to Mario a bit again and also in a confidential way, he continued to act like hetero but some interesting things came out. In practice he thinks that there really exists, not exactly a gay lobby but a dangerous gay world that hides behind the emotional dimension and is capable of coercing and blackmailing people. He is basically afraid of gays and prefers to hide behind a false straight identity, which is why (even if he obviously didn't say it) his sexual life is all on dating sites and he has no relationships of any kind with the guys he knows in real life. I told him that gays don't eat anyone, that I know some of them and that they are guys like everyone else, that we are friends and that there have never been any problems of any kind. Mario was listening to me, evidently it was the first time he had heard this kind of talk about gays, and he listened with the utmost attention. Obviously I didn't tell him that I was gay, but the fact that I had openly gay friends and that I considered them in a positive way struck him a lot, I told him that I knew Marco and that we were friends, but he couldn't identify him by his name, because he didn't know him except by sight and he didn't know his name and anyway there are many guys called Marco.
I spoke to him about Marco so enthusiastically that Mario did something I would never have imagined, he said to me: "Could you introduce me to him?" and I told him: “Of course! There is no problem!" Then Mario had a lesson and left but he left me his mobile number, and this was a sign that he was really interested in meeting this (for him) so elusive Marco. There was a problem, however, if he had met Marco in person he would have immediately identified him with the guy from university that he had always kept at a distance on the dating site and he would have felt heavily disgraced, but on the other hand there were no alternatives. I spoke with Marco and we organized a pizza for the three of us, when I told Mario, he panicked, because it was practically the first time he would meet a gay guy in person, he was a little scared but curiosity was very strong. In the end, a little insistence was enough and Mario agreed to go and eat pizza with Marco and me.
The big day arrives. Appointment at 8.00 pm in front of the university. I've been there since 7.30pm, Mario arrives at 7.45pm, Marco arrives at 7.50pm (all before the time!). When Mario sees Marco and recognizes him, he feels a moment of panic, but Marco gives him his hand and says: "Hi, I'm Marco, we already know each other." But obviously Marco doesn't add anything else, leaving it to be understood that they met at university and therefore reassuring Mario. We went to eat pizza and in the pizzeria we only talked about our study courses. Mario was afraid that Marco might come up with some gay topic but there wasn't the slightest mention of those topics. Before 9.00 pm we were outside the pizzeria and we went to a small garden near the university, where there is a bench quite isolated. We sat down, Marco in the middle, Mario on his right and me on the left. Marco began by asking Mario: "Still convinced that gays eat children?" The tension of the evening dissolved a bit, Marco continued to behave as if he took Mario's heterosexuality for granted and Mario did not come out, but at the end of the evening Marco and Mario exchanged cell phone numbers and it was a huge step forward.
A couple of weeks later Mario meets me on the university streets and says laughing: "You too?!" I tell him: “Well, things are almost never as they seem!” and he looks at me with an allusive smile and says: “I think you're right!” then he adds: “Shall the three of us go for pizza again? What do you think about it?" I tell him: “if you and Marco agree, everything is fine with me!” He replies: “Okay!” and he goes to class.
The second meeting in the pizzeria begins under the best auspices. Meet at 8pm at the usual place. I arrive half an hour early as usual, then Mario and Marco arrive together. We say goodbye and Mario says: “Now we know everything about everyone! … What a strange atmosphere! I would never have imagined something like this!” I had brought a sticker with the rainbow flag from home, I approached Mario and stuck it on him and said: “What is this thing here? Ah yes… but it suits you!” and he replies: “What an idiot you are!” and he starts laughing.